Just Feeling Blue

Oh the ups and downs of life.  I woke at 4 this morning and found myself on the couch with my legs curled up--I was half way down the couch; don't know why I didn't scoot up.  I had fallen asleep while I watched a movie with the kids last night.  My body is getting so it shuts down around 9 or 9:30pm.  I can't even force myself to stay up.

Well, at 4, I realized that my contacts had been in my eyes all night and were pretty fried.  I went upstairs and pulled them out, climbed into some jammies and curled up in bed.  Sounds pretty idyllic, huh?  Well, I laid there and continued to lay there until 5:30 with this yucky feeling in my heart.  I couldn't shake it, so I decided ot get up and do something (with a minimum of light).

I folded laundry and put it away.  I straightened things.  I let the dog out and just did a bunch of little things.  Then, T woke up--it was 7am.

I decided that if T was going to climb in my bed, I'd better climb in too to see if I could fake sleep long enough for him to fall back asleep.  I fell quickly off to sleep, and boy did it feel good!  Next thing I  knew, I was awake again.  I'm not sure what woke me, but I was sad to be awake.

It's been a good day--soccer, lunch with the fam, Relief Society broadcast, and watching shows with the kids, but here I am again with my creepy feeling.  I don't want to feel this way. 

Life is changing, and I don't like it!