Saturday, September 25, 2010

Just Feeling Blue

Oh the ups and downs of life.  I woke at 4 this morning and found myself on the couch with my legs curled up--I was half way down the couch; don't know why I didn't scoot up.  I had fallen asleep while I watched a movie with the kids last night.  My body is getting so it shuts down around 9 or 9:30pm.  I can't even force myself to stay up.

Well, at 4, I realized that my contacts had been in my eyes all night and were pretty fried.  I went upstairs and pulled them out, climbed into some jammies and curled up in bed.  Sounds pretty idyllic, huh?  Well, I laid there and continued to lay there until 5:30 with this yucky feeling in my heart.  I couldn't shake it, so I decided ot get up and do something (with a minimum of light).

I folded laundry and put it away.  I straightened things.  I let the dog out and just did a bunch of little things.  Then, T woke up--it was 7am.

I decided that if T was going to climb in my bed, I'd better climb in too to see if I could fake sleep long enough for him to fall back asleep.  I fell quickly off to sleep, and boy did it feel good!  Next thing I  knew, I was awake again.  I'm not sure what woke me, but I was sad to be awake.

It's been a good day--soccer, lunch with the fam, Relief Society broadcast, and watching shows with the kids, but here I am again with my creepy feeling.  I don't want to feel this way. 

Life is changing, and I don't like it!


Janiece said...

I hate that feeling...I usually start calling all of my family and just checking on them.
Hang in there...

vaxhacker said...

Yeah, I hate days like that, too. Hang in there, you've got tons of loving family and friends, life is good. And the melancholy times just highlight the joyful ones all the more!

I've kinda been there myself lately, too, so I can kinda relate :/

Alyson said...

I hate it when I can't sleep. Sleep is one of the things that makes my happy life worth living, I heart sleep.

But this goes way deeper than those hours of missed sleep. *hugs*

Tonya said...

You know that I have days like this. I hate them too. Next time you feel this way call me and lets go to lunch or go get drunk on Monnstruck Chocolate :0) I love you Julie!!!

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