If I Could Have Her Back for Just a Few Minutes

These past eleven years have flown by in so many ways.  The one thing that hasn't changed is the fact that for each of those days I have missed my mom in one way or another.  So, on this, the eleventh anniversary of her death, I got to thinking about what I would do if I could have her here for just a few minutes.  Here's what I would do...

• I would sit and eat eclairs with her--our special thing to do when we were alone together.
• I would ask her how she, with no prior experience being raised an only child, was able to raise six of her own and do such a great job.
• I would just listen to her sweet voice and look into her sparkly eyes and try to memorize her laugh and her smile.
• I would re-introduce my children to her; although, I'm sure she already knows them.  I only had three when she passed away.
• I would just stand and hug her and see if that might keep her here longer.

There have been numerous times since she's been gone when I've felt her close.  As time wears on, these times seem to be farther and farther apart, or maybe I'm just drifting into an overly busy life and moving farther from trying to remember her. 

I have little doubt that she's here, somewhere close, watching after us.  There are definitely times when I've cried knowing how much easier things would be if I could just call her and hear her ever-encouraging words and learn from her advice.  She was the person who loved me more than anyone else on this earth, no doubt, and oh, how I miss her!