Saturday, April 24, 2010

Sometimes Life is Hard

Decisions....

Ugh!  Sometimes they're so hard to make.

Sometimes you know what you're supposed to do.  You know what would be in your best interest, but in order to do that, you have to change course.  You have to cancel plans that you've made.  Plans that might even affect others.  Sometimes those plans even affect others in big ways.  Plans you made even though you knew that what you were doing wasn't right, but you hoped those feelings that it was wrong would somehow magically change to feel right.  What a surprise that they never do.  Wrong is just always wrong.  No matter how many different ways we try to make it right and thus avoid the hard things that go along with the change.

What would have happened had we just listened to those feelings before committing so much time and effort into what we knew deep down we could never, not in a million years, change.  Is it that we would have missed out on a lesson?  Or could it be that we missed out on other, better lessons by ignoring those feelings?

I would love to be one of those people who always listens.  I feel like, as I'm getting older, I'm finally learning to listen and respond based on what I hear and feel a bit more consistently, but I'm still not great at this.  I still feel like a little kid in so many ways regarding this.  I want what I want to be the best thing for me.  So many times it's not.  Why can't I just learn to follow that?  Why can't I trust that?

Ugh!

Decisions....

5 comments:

Grace said...

Julie, I too would love to be one of those who always listens...I need to work on that so much more. It gets tough at times. That is definitely one of my weaknesses that i am trying to work at

meganconser said...

I think certain times in life its easier to listen than others. But always, decisions are hard. We are constantly being challenged and we are on a constant learning curve and even if we only learn a teeny tiny way to rely on the spirit, even in hindsite(after making a poor choice), then I think we have won just a little bit, gotten just a little bit closer to seeing the big picture we are here on earth to see. Does that make any sense? You are my hero Julie. I love you.

Melissa said...

Julie,
One person can stand alone in something, but when there are two people it carries so much more - and when that second person is the Lord, you can do anything! It lifts the whole situation...
I love you!
m

Rachel said...

Julie

I think that by even pondering your decisions you are being faithful in listening and trying to discern what to do. Continue to lift your concerns to the Lord...and trust that the answer will be made known to you.

Blessings,
Rachel

vaxhacker said...

I was thinking along the same lines as Rachel. Even going through the process of questioning yourself here, and analyzing what impulses and inspirations you're listening to, is part of the learning and growing process.

But these kinds of things are really tough. Sometimes the choice between two good (but mutually exclusive) things can be agonizing.

I've learned something, though, as I've had the experience of helping people get out of difficult circumstances they've gotten themselves into, when beyond the initial quick-fix moment there is a long period of learning to make better decisions or live more effectively--which is a process of one step at a time for as long as it takes--(and being on the receiving end of being helped in the same way).

It's tempting to think our investment in time and energy was for naught, didn't affect our lives or others' lives like we hoped, didn't keep someone from making better choices, or whatever, but in reality we helped and touched and even affected them (and us) more than we realize. Sometimes the seeds we plant take a while to sprout, but when they do, they can strongly take root.

Maybe a bit tangential to your main point, but maybe not... but hopefully I'm making as much sense trying to express this as it is making inside my brain :)

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