Thursday, October 23, 2008

Feeling Sad

Just had to say it.

Here's this morning's impression, "Take care of the people first then take care of the stuff."

I'm also learning to take care of the people closest to you first then those who are farther removed.

I spend this morning dealing with an issue with one of my young women. It needed to be handled. I didn't even get showered or dressed first. These are things that HAVE to happen in my life for the day to run smoothly, and they have to happen before my children get up, or they just have to sit outside the bathroom door waiting.

Well, that didn't happen.

I got the youngest fed while dealing with this issue, but I didn't even get dressed. I wore my scrubs and a sweatshirt to bed last night, so I walked the kids to school in those. My day has started out totally wrong.

I don't even know if I got the YW issue solved. If this was a test, I failed.

My two middle children went off to school without kisses. Ugh! That's just not supposed to happen, so now I'm having a hard time letting go of all this and starting over again for the morning.

I know this probably all sounds stupid to everyone but me. Just had to get it out of my head. Ah the plights of an at home mom. I know that if this is as bad as my day gets I'm in pretty great shape. Just needed to wallow in it for a few minutes. Now I'm done.

8 comments:

Carr Lot said...

I hear ya when things don't go the way they need to...but if I asked your children if their mom loves them, there will be a resounding "YES!" : ) Life happens. The counselor I served with in RS taught me that, you roll with the punches and thankfully - tomorrow starts a brand new day. So open a great big bag of PB M&M's (make sure you have a handful or two for me) and smile. It's all okay. Love you!

Carr Lot said...

LOL when I navigated back to your page, "don't worry, be happy" was blaring through my speakers. hehe It's a sign I tell ya!!! PB M&M's watch out!!!

Belcher Family said...

I think as Mom's we always tend to beat ourselves up. I have had those days we all have. I am positive that your children know that you love them...there is no question. Just give them extra hugs and kisses when they get home! That will make up for it! :) Its just nice to know that I am not the only one out there.

vaxhacker said...

Taking care of the people first is an important principle. I wish even the majority of my mornings started out the way I'm most comfortable with, but that's not how it works. Usually I can ad lib things enough to still get the kiddos off to school on time and myself off to work. Some days I'm not even sure how it all managed to happen.

The captcha word staring at me on this web page right now as I type this is "cheat". Somehow, maybe I'm just weird, but to me that seem apropos.

There are days, plenty of them, where my morning sounds a lot like yours, and I think in those cases you just have to be willing to "cheat" and just do what it takes to get the most important things done, and try to catch up the rest later. And (the harder part) not let it bother you too much.

Hm, now that I've articulated that all out, it doesn't make as much sense as it did in my head, so I'll distract you from noticing that by telling the punch line of a story that reminded me of.

When I was a youth, the member of my stake presidency in charge of the youth, a man named Hyrum Smith (try growing up with that name) was an excellent speaker and great with the youth in general. In one of his talks he describes the efforts of his former ward to invite a member's husband to get baptized. He'd been fairly active in church activities for decades but never made that decision yet. When one new brother challenged him, he put down his cigar, looked at him amusedly, and said, "I'll tell you what, I'll toss a quarter. If it comes up heads, I'll join your church, tails, I won't." He flipped the coin, caught it, and looked at it. Tails. And as he described it later, he said that for the first time in his life he heard the Spirit speak to him clearly. It said, "cheat." So he said, "gee, it's heads guess I better join your church." Which he did and became one of the great active members of that ward.

Sometimes things don't happen the way you expect that they're supposed to, but there's always a way to make them work out right in the end.

Darilyn said...

I can't figure out if you are being too hard on yourself or just irritated because the day started off wrong. Whatever it is, you are a great mom and a great friend.

Jeannie said...

Don't feel bad about not kissing your kids by, they will be there when you get home.

meganconser said...

I like how you make showering a priority and your family deals with it. My life is much smoother when I can start the day out with several minutes alone with hot water to clear my head. I think I need to be more on top of it and determined to make every day start out that way. Sorry you missed it today and it left you out of sinq. I think you are a wonderful mom and a wonderful friend. Your day may not have started off the way you wanted it to, but I seriously doubt anyone was too neglected or deprived- were they? If today was a test, I just hope you aren't grading yourself- because one yucko day out of how many good days will not bring you average down too far. And I am sure you have enough extra credit to make up for it! So double up the kisses goodbye tommorrow and enjoy that shower! Hang in there Julie!

Alyson said...

*hugs*

I know just what you mean! Even if you make it through the day, if you always feel you left essentials undone (like showers! dressing! being cute! kissing kiddles!) then the day, no matter how successful, seems sort of like a wreck.

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